Somehow it always goes back to school... I just had this urge to want to write something about how my Calculus exam went. Well, depends on how you view it really... I studied for it, but not enough. The ones I didn't know, I think I would have done better if I just went along with the original exam (multiple choice) than the one I took today (showing work). However, there are probably mistakes in my work and I'm glad that at least I get partial credit for showing all the right steps. Knowing me, I fare better that way anyway. Usually on exams I make mistakes on the easy parts but I get the hard parts. Don't know how to explain that except that I just can't be perfect.
After the exam which took me about 1 1/2 hours... at about 12:30 I had lunch with Rekah (a friend from school. I don't think I spelled her name correctly though) at the MSB (Medical Science Building. I also work at a lab there with my dad). She was late but once she got there, we just sat there until around 3:30 or so and talked. I don't really know how I feel about what she told me today. The fact that her best friend is a lesbian/bi. Before watching Dark Angel, I never even comprehended the fact how a girl could be friends (let along best friends) with a lesbian. It's not that I have anything against homosexual people. I really don't...it's up to them what they chose for themselves. Just that...I really don't know. There will always be a comfort level with people and this for me is just past that. I can understand because it could be just like having a guy for a friend. But there are just always risks er... issues at least to being friends with someone who's homosexual. One thing I learned today is I should watch what I say in public. From that one time that I was with Omar, when I said pretty loudly at the gym "You tell me, what's wrong with Russians?" (we were just talking about how we like Russians) to just when I casually talk to my friends and crack jokes sometimes about people who are "gay". I didn't realize that some people would be offended by what I say...well actually did...just that I don't think about it too much. I mean just today, I found out a guy that I thought was "straight like a stick" was actually bi. There are so much that I can learn. I wonder if I can even get about 1% of the knowledge in the world.
Zhen might not be going to the Chinese picnic we are having somewhere in the Mason area tomorrow. It's all stupid really. The main reason is because his mom (who happens to be my god-mother...going on mother-in-law LOL) won't let him. She's afraid basically what other people would think. Even today, she ask Chen's mom if Chen (just a neighbor) was going to be going to the picnic like two times. Zhen's mom is actually worried about him...she's afraid that he will get a bad reputition because he is "dating" me. Well...he isn't really dating me. But she doesn't want other people to think so if we aren't really dating or going "steady". Even my dad is kinda worried about that. He asked Chen's mom today as well if he was going. I feel sorry for Chen though. He is kinda caught up in all this mess. It's not like my god-mother or dad care about him. They just want to know if he is going to going so that Zhen won't look bad. I think Zhen wants to go. Actually all I have to do is tell him that I want him to go and he would. But I don't want him to defy his mother like that. That's why I told him that he should do what she says... However, I don't think I'll have that much fun if he doesn't go. There probably won't be anyone that I know and it'll be boring if I have to meet new people.
I'm kind of worried about my face right now. The truth is that I have had a mild-moderate form of acne ever since puberty sneaked up on me. About a year ago I went to a dermatologist and she gave me a prescription for two topicals and one oral medicine. It really helped clear up my skin. But like all good things...it came to an end (the prescription I mean). So for the past like three months or so I haven't used any medicine for my face except using a good soap the doc recommended for me. Lately probably cuz my cycle is screwed up (My guess is that it's stuck at one place which the hormones causes acne)...I have been getting really bad bumps on my face. The first ones that came up was probably because of the benzine I used to try to cover up the first big bump on my chin. Now my chin is full of them. I think I was brought up to believe that those people who don't have clear faces are dirty and nasty people. Well, now I look in the mirror...and it really disgusts me. I can't believe why people even want to be friends or like me now. Truth be told, I don't even want to got to the picnic tomorrow becuase of my face. I'm afraid that I'll embarrase my parents. Funny huh?

The Organic Chemistry exam which I mentioned yesterday...well...it didn't go as well as I would have hoped. There are just some things that cannot be learned in about two hours and believe me, Organic Chemistry is one of them. I naively thought that because the professor seemed so much nicer than the one from the previous quarter, she would give exams nicer as well. Boy was I wrong. I'll be lucky if I got any points for the mumble jumble I wrote this morning.
The rest of the day went along fine though. Actually, it shouldn't be considered as "went along" because I barely did anything other than play Yahoo! Towers . It's kind of like my favorite game because it sort of challenges the player's wit and "observational" skills. After about 4pm, Zhen (my god-brother/best-friend/???) came to help my with my math. The exam was supposed to be on Monday but because of my Organic Chemistry lab at the same time, I did not take it and so therefore will take it tomorrow. I really respect him for the fact that he cares so much about me and is willing to sit there and re-learn all the material so that he can teach me in my way of learning. Not to be big-headed but, I think every teacher would love to have a student like me because I think if the teacher gives out the information, I can pick it up like "that". At around 5:30, I got hungry so we decided to go to my favorite Chinese restaurant King Wok where we had live lobster. I don't think the people that worked there liked it too much that we just sat there and did homework after we finished eating, but after about a hour and a half of that, we finally left and they kinda gave a sigh of relief. Calculus is easy when the concept is understood clearly. My main problem with that is that I am not careful when it comes to small mistakes in the problems. That's probably why I sometimes do bad (a B grin) on the exams.
I was told by Mai (a Vietnamese friend of mine that takes Organic and is in a few organizations with me) that I was nominated for public relations and secretary at the Asian American Association meeting today. The secretary position sounds ok but the public relations is a major no-no just because every one who is nominated for the position needs to give a speech and I know myself pretty well...I'm no speech giver. Even though the position does not go well as in the fact that all we do is take minutes for the meetings (meaning I have to always attend) but it will be cool to be a part of the executive board. That way, I can probably influence people enough to help them change their mind about certain things I'm not too happy about at AAA. I think that's enough rambling for today...
Goodnight.

First of all, I would like to introduce myself. My name is Qijun Song (people call me June...believe me it'll be easier) and as of today April 17th, 2002, I am 19 years old. Even though some of you might think..."only 19?" I feel like I've been around the world and back. I realize that there is so much more that I haven't experienced or learned about. But... Well anyways, you can find out some basics about me through my web-page (which you probably came through to get here anyways) at http://www.geocities.com/qijuns.
For some reason I've been trying to start a journal for a while now. About a month ago I started one on a composition book. I think it's good for me in the fact that I can basically develop my writing skills (of which I have not much of) and my vocabulary. One of my New Year's resolutions was in fact to learn new words. Everyone knows that in order to learn new words, one must be able to use them correctly and quite often as well. Well as for the journal I started about a month ago...I stopped for about a week and now I really don't feel like writing in it again. What used to be reflections about my day turned out to be another one of my "5th grade entries". In the fact that I started writing about how my day went and how "Bobby held my hand today" type of format. I think I really do enjoy writing. However, the one problem with this is that I have to actually sit down and type it out. No matter what, it'll still be better than writing everything out long handed.
Today really sucked. I think a whole lot of things went wrong. First of all...I realized that I had lab today and I was wearing shorts (the Organic Chemistry people have this thing about students wearing/not wearing certain things during lab for "our protection"). My theory is if it is going to happen it will. No matter if you wear safety goggles or closed-toed shoes. Then our whole Ecology lab drove all the way over to Mt.Airy Forest to walk up this hill and throw this plastic what-I-would-call a sewer pipe around so that we can find out how many of each type of plants there were. This whole thing was for us to get random data. I think I would have done a "better" job just sitting there for about 10 minutes and making up my own things. That was probably the most waste of time thing that I've done in quite a few months. After that, I went to Chem. lab (late, therefore missing a 20 pt quiz) wearing Gulshan's (a very good friend at school) jogging pants. Little did I know, not having the lab notebook with my protocol in it would cause us (Gulshan usually does labs with me) not to be able to even do the lab. Even though Gulshan already had the protocol written up. Urgh! I think I'm frustrated with everything right now. Most of all myself. I have an Organic Chemistry exam tomorrow and I haven't even started studying for that.
Ok, I'll go now. There is so much more that I want to write about but that will be it for now.