I think I'm tired of the little pictures in front of all of my posts. From now on, I won't put them on. One reason probably for who it's been so long is maybe I've been using that as an excuse. I don't think I can be any lazier. :-) Oh well!
I'm supposed to be writing a lab report right now...and even though it's easy I really don't feel like doing it right now. I know it'd be better for me to do it because then I will have all day tomorrow to study for my Monday exam...but... When do I ever do anything that's "better" for me?
Zhen was at my house overnight tonight. He really is growing on me. My parents asked me if I loved him. I told them that it's just to live... something that they probably forgot that they told me a few months ago. I mean I don't want to hold it against them...but just some of my reasons on why I chose him was because of them....and now... I don't think I will be able to admit that for quite a while later... I mean physically we are so close...he's basically seen "everything" I know that sounds bad... but it really doesn't matter anymore once you know that you're going to marry the guy right? I'm not sure. I'm actually pretty bad when he's around now. At first I was shy about it. Now I think he is considered the shy one. lol I can't believe myself sometimes...
I'm listening/watching Enrique Iglesias's Hero video. I have it on repeat for some reason. I guess I'm just trying to make sense of it...also the song being pretty good on hitting my usual type of mood doesn't hurt it. I dont' understand it. I mean is he talking to the girl or what? Is he stealing her away from her brother or father? Then he gets beaten up...does he die? I wish there was a site that I could go to so that I can find out the meaning of some of these music videos.
Steve called today. He's in Dallas at the time which he called. I wish I could do that. I wish I could fly anywhere I wanted to and I only have to worry about the car parking and such. If that was the case I think I would fly to China extremely often. There really isn't much there that I could really want...just it's a symbol of what I want but can't have. I want to be a part of a group...any group...but I can't have that because of my race, age, sex, whatever... Some people want to be individauls...but I find that I would be happier as a groupie.
I'm supposed to be writing a lab report right now...and even though it's easy I really don't feel like doing it right now. I know it'd be better for me to do it because then I will have all day tomorrow to study for my Monday exam...but... When do I ever do anything that's "better" for me?
Zhen was at my house overnight tonight. He really is growing on me. My parents asked me if I loved him. I told them that it's just to live... something that they probably forgot that they told me a few months ago. I mean I don't want to hold it against them...but just some of my reasons on why I chose him was because of them....and now... I don't think I will be able to admit that for quite a while later... I mean physically we are so close...he's basically seen "everything" I know that sounds bad... but it really doesn't matter anymore once you know that you're going to marry the guy right? I'm not sure. I'm actually pretty bad when he's around now. At first I was shy about it. Now I think he is considered the shy one. lol I can't believe myself sometimes...
I'm listening/watching Enrique Iglesias's Hero video. I have it on repeat for some reason. I guess I'm just trying to make sense of it...also the song being pretty good on hitting my usual type of mood doesn't hurt it. I dont' understand it. I mean is he talking to the girl or what? Is he stealing her away from her brother or father? Then he gets beaten up...does he die? I wish there was a site that I could go to so that I can find out the meaning of some of these music videos.
Steve called today. He's in Dallas at the time which he called. I wish I could do that. I wish I could fly anywhere I wanted to and I only have to worry about the car parking and such. If that was the case I think I would fly to China extremely often. There really isn't much there that I could really want...just it's a symbol of what I want but can't have. I want to be a part of a group...any group...but I can't have that because of my race, age, sex, whatever... Some people want to be individauls...but I find that I would be happier as a groupie.
